Hi everyone
havent posted for a while, going through some very hard times at the moment.
after having 6 months of CBT,im now currently undergoing EMDR - eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing
Its a treatment using eye movement to reprosess tramatic events - for me the night of the spiking.
www.emdr-therapy.org/
had my 2nd session today to try and pinpoint where the exact triggers and events are and was extremly tough, harrowing and emotional.
ive got post tramatic stress disorder, the drug i was spiked with (suspected GHB) has left me with a gap in the timeline, im sure people here know that, and its horrible, my therapist said that gap has to filled else it will continue to control my life.
i have a gap between the time i was in the club drinking to waking up in resus in hospital.i dont remember leaving the place where we were, walking home or anything,..its unlikely but i dont know if i was attacked in anyway, which has always haunted me, having no memory, just not being able to control the way i think or feel, its now controling how live my life. and for me to have a chance to move on that gap has to be brought back.
im gunna be undergoing EMDR to see if anything can be bought back and to put bed the fears, the tears the anger, as my therapist said its not about forgeting it its about moving on.
just going to be so so painful
