Hi to all that remeber me and all new people

I am sorry I have not been on for a while I have been trying to stay focused on my life and move things forward, I did watch from afar but tried not to get involved. I have a new little man in my life, he is 15 months old now and is so beautiful it is untrue I could just stare at him all day. He keeps me motivated and ticking over.

Anyhow despite trying to move on I find I am no further forward today than I was some 2 years ago. I am receiving CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) at the moment and although they said usual timescale is 8 sessions i am already on 9 and feeling no better

I find it so weird sometimes how these evil beings still have a hold over my life but they do....

Don't get me wrong the impact lessens, the anniversaries pass by quicker but deep down everyday it crosses my mind.

Anyhow I am so sorry for not being here for anyone that may have needed an ear to listen but I am back and hopefully here to help.

The people who I meet and spoke to on this site were the most important part of my survival and I love you all (you know who you are)

Sending Love to all

Puglet xx

Hi Puglet,

It's nice to hear your news, and to see a familar face. I hope that you are well? and congratulations on your new arrival. I too have been viewing from afar, trying to put it all behind me and move on (its not very easy-good days and bad days!)

I'm sorry to hear that the CBT isn't helping you as well as you would like, I've not really been through it to know or have any advice. Maybe being around people on here who can relate and understand will help you like its helped before?

I know how hard it is to try and put it behind you, and how sometimes it feels as if your no further forward than that moment when life suddenly changed. But try not to view it as a hold over life, if it was you'd not have a new baby and all the things your achieving now. Remember they are the scum/low lifes.

If you ever need a friend to talk to you, you know where you can find me.

Take Care, and stay strong.

F x

hey hun

its weird its so good to have you back, but not...we miss our friends from the old forum and like to see us all come back toghether but also dont like us needing roofie over again seems lke it nevr goes aeaay

olease exsue my splelling iove had 2 seizure s in 2 days yest & today so feeling yuck!

i take it your having CBT on the NHS...if you dont feel its working yet then fihght and kick fr more i fouhgh and got 20 weeks in the end - that was for depression as a teenaager

for the spiking i was denied it i went through hell, i even made a suicde attempt and y social worker wanted to get me section me..theywouodnt, as a family we ended up taking out various loas and creit cards and get me treated under the priory hospital CBT is £121 per hour psyhciarist review every 6 weeks £100

ive now finished CBT and im moving onto EMDR in the new year

tell your theapist your concerns it ISNT for everyone and there are others out
bthere

with every bit of love and hugs

missed you loads
and sorry to see you back but love to hve you1.xxx

Hi Fi and Hi Pink Angel

So fab to hear from you guys i have just read your posts and it has brought a huge smile and a little tear to my eyes. I know it isn't good to need roofie but god I have just realised how much I have missed you all. I feel like I have just got my backbone back

I am getting the CBT on NHS they pushed my through due to having a baby and thought it may develop into post natal depression so yeah it is ok, fingers crossed they can sort me out

Sorry your seizures have been bad again Pink, are you any further forward in treatment??????

Love you all and I have missed you heaps
xxx

hey puglet

at the moment im waiting to start new medication, just been reduced off one for it.

my neurologist in london wants me in for more tests longer EEG and becuase my physical health have fallen along with it, to which i dont get much help here physio wise so theyve decided i need neuro rehab so just waiting to find out when really

just cant belibe in less than 2 months it will 5 years since this all began....

Hi Everyone,

I too have been watching from afar, trying to move forward but checking back every so often . It is so nice to see all the oldies back! Puglet many congratulations on the baby, that is fantastic news!

Sorry to hear that the CBT isn't helping so far. I have just been allocated 6 sessions of CBT, I've had one session so far but she doesn't think 6 is enough ! I got diagnosed with vaginismus which I think maybe an affect of the rape; turns out I can't remember what happened, but my body can, and my muscles tense up and it is really painful. It's been really shit and I'm really struggling with everything right now. It's 4 years later and I'm still being affected by it! So yeah I understand your frustration!

Sorry to hear about your seizures Pink, sending many hugs to you. I hope they manage to sort your meds and everything. I didn't know that there was EMDR after CBT, you will have to let us know how you get on and if it is effective!

Fi!!! "Remember they are the scum/low lifes" Miss you so much! You make me smile

Keep fighting ladies, I know we will get through this together! xxx